For those who have said "just believe you're being healed"....it's not quite that simple. Two weeks ago I got some very distressing news that was compounded by other factors, and it triggered a heart spell...which with Pulmonary Hypertension, wasn't unexpected, and has taken fairly long to heal. PH also causes breathing issues, which were brought about by the spell. I also have an auto immune disorder, and those have what are referred to as "flare ups"...which are exceedingly painful and draining. I am in the middle of one of those now, it hit night before last. It will pass.
I have lived with arthritis most of my life. I have lived with PH now for almost 8 years (has it been that long, Charles?) and the auto-immune disease, I'm not quite sure when it set in, but many people in my family have it, and while it doesn't manifest itself often, when it does, it is a doozy.
I am upset about none of this, nor bitter, nor calling on and demanding God do anything. We ask for Him to help me through it, to ease it and heal it if...IF...it is in His Will and for His glory. Otherwise, I pray that He uses this, and any other means, to draw me nearer unto Him, to teach me ever greater reliance upon Him, and to be able to use this to witness and minister to others who are hurting or in pain. And in that manner, all of these things become a blessing to me.
These health issues, they are the cross I have been given to bear; and they are the thorn in my side. If God wants them lifted, or cured, He will do so. He has before, when I had cancer. I know He can do it, but I do not presume to put my will upon Him, but rather submit unto God.
I do believe the prayers of friends and family help; they have kept bad colds from going into my lungs, those prayers have helped with relief from pain, and I know prayer can work wonders. But until God decides to lift these from me, or call me home, they are just a factor of my daily life. It is not a matter of believing enough, or having a strong enough faith....I KNOW and trust in my Lord; He is ever with me.
But as Paul said, when we are weak, then we are strong in the grace of our Lord......and His grace is ever sufficient for me.
I have lived with arthritis most of my life. I have lived with PH now for almost 8 years (has it been that long, Charles?) and the auto-immune disease, I'm not quite sure when it set in, but many people in my family have it, and while it doesn't manifest itself often, when it does, it is a doozy.
I am upset about none of this, nor bitter, nor calling on and demanding God do anything. We ask for Him to help me through it, to ease it and heal it if...IF...it is in His Will and for His glory. Otherwise, I pray that He uses this, and any other means, to draw me nearer unto Him, to teach me ever greater reliance upon Him, and to be able to use this to witness and minister to others who are hurting or in pain. And in that manner, all of these things become a blessing to me.
These health issues, they are the cross I have been given to bear; and they are the thorn in my side. If God wants them lifted, or cured, He will do so. He has before, when I had cancer. I know He can do it, but I do not presume to put my will upon Him, but rather submit unto God.
I do believe the prayers of friends and family help; they have kept bad colds from going into my lungs, those prayers have helped with relief from pain, and I know prayer can work wonders. But until God decides to lift these from me, or call me home, they are just a factor of my daily life. It is not a matter of believing enough, or having a strong enough faith....I KNOW and trust in my Lord; He is ever with me.
But as Paul said, when we are weak, then we are strong in the grace of our Lord......and His grace is ever sufficient for me.
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